Poetic Letter #11

Dear Nievai,

Please forgive me for being blunt
Instead of using a title to describe you
I chose the name with which you signed
Your previous letter to me.

It has been quiet between the two of us
Partly because we both have obligations
Some pleasant and some are not
But is there maybe something else?

Our last conversation, in hindsight I admit
I think I have been rude to you
By making suggestion which, I should have known,
Were already offered thousands of times before
And they all were unable to help you.
But in my defense, I didn't mean to lecture you
I merely wanted to help a friend in need
But I think I lacked the necessary care.

I read your recent journal and
Wondered if I could dare to comment again
As you can see, my answer was "no"
And I decided to show instead of telling
That you are not alone my friend
No matter how things may seem.

I admit, I know only little about you
But I still wish to change this one day
Though I don't know what happened
What caused your world to turn dark
Let me give these words to you
Maybe they can be the spark
Necessary to find matches and a candle
Or provide comfort until others,
The friends with wings of light,
Can clear your sky from clouds.

This letter is not on time, I'm well aware
But I somehow thought that yesterday
Was not a good day for writing you.
Thought That telling you to hold on
Would sound like mockery
While I was showered with affection.

So maybe today it will be easier to believe
When I tell you I felt incredible lonely once
As if i was trapped in a dark prison cell
With bleak wall towering high above me
No door and only one window
Just a slit below the grey ceiling
The only source of light and unreachable for me.
But today the room is gone.

It turned out the walls were never as high
Or as thick as I had believed
It turned out the window was closer
And much larger than I had thought
In the end it was an open door
The exit I had longed for.

I don't want to tell a fairy tale
For you just so you feel better.
Believe it or not, the story's true
I don't want to lecture you
Because I have no desire or right to do.
I simply wish to tell you to hang on
Hang on just a little longer
You'll see you're not all alone.

Sincerely,
Diluculi